I am back for my weekly post. This past week has been full of trials for my family and partner. J finally got her positive test tuesday morning from her dr. But wednesday was started with tears and heart ache as she miscarried hers and K's babies. She went in Friday for a D&C where she was transferred via ambulance to hospital er. She then discovered she was 9 weeks with twins. J is still having heartache but is doing okay.
Tuesday S and KN decided to destroy their bedroom. In a fit of rage I punch a wall (did not damage wall) and sprained my wrist. But thankfully I was able to clean kids room easily and wrist is doing better.
Today A swallowed a penny, so far no complications. He went to urgent care and it is moving along smoothly. He is getting closer and closer to walking each day. Before I know it he will be running.
I am emotionally unsure about things. I love both K and J but lately (past 2ish weeks) I have noticed J prefers K over myself. It makes me feel bad and unloved by her. I wish I could express this to her but i can't. especially not after her past week of hell and on going weeks/months of hell to come. How do I do this? Is there going to be a tighter bond between her and him? I am lost and confused.
Sunday, June 26, 2016
Sunday, June 19, 2016
A New Start
Hi, I have another blog I have not posted in, in a long time, So i am starting over.
Into: There is me, my husband K, Partner J, kids S (age 5 boy) who has special needs), daughter KN (age 3) and baby A (1yr boy). I may introduce names at a later date i am unsure right now. We are in a polyamory relationship (J) There are 2 females and then K. This is a new relationship going on month 2. There are ups and downs just like any relationship. We are adjusting, but I have realized that even though this was my idea and K and I talked about it for 3 years I am still jealous. J needs more attention than I had thought and sometimes it hurts to see her need that attention from K. But i am trying to remember that we are all adjusting and this is new for all of us. The kids think she is wonderful and love her. I think the hardest part is she is not 2 months late for her cycle but has only had 1 faint positive test and 10 negative tests, She went to the dr last week but no results yet.
I think the most interesting part of all of this was telling our families. J's parents and uncle handled it really well. But her sister (older) Is no longer talking to J. J has also lost 2 close friends due to the relationship (partially) but is getting though it. K only had to tell his dad (my father in law) and father in law said "Why do I care?" which was nice. My mom and step grandparents had a variety of responses. My mom said "I am prying you will find the right way to live", While my step grand parents welcomed her and said "Its not our choice as long as you're happy we don't care".
Next was telling friends and posting to face book. Several of my friends were not surprised, as they knew K and I were seeking a third. Others thought K and I were divorcing, and asking questions as to what happened. The most interesting response was my sisters moms. and her telling me she had lived this life and still is and loves it. and then she tried to go into detail about the Sex (which is way more than I wanted/needed to know about my sisters mom). But we did receive mainly positive responses to our choice in lifestyle which was wonderful to us after several bad responses.
I plan to do a once a week update on Sundays, while I relax and get ready for the next week of school. If there are any questions I will try tho Answer them to the best I can.
Erin L.
Into: There is me, my husband K, Partner J, kids S (age 5 boy) who has special needs), daughter KN (age 3) and baby A (1yr boy). I may introduce names at a later date i am unsure right now. We are in a polyamory relationship (J) There are 2 females and then K. This is a new relationship going on month 2. There are ups and downs just like any relationship. We are adjusting, but I have realized that even though this was my idea and K and I talked about it for 3 years I am still jealous. J needs more attention than I had thought and sometimes it hurts to see her need that attention from K. But i am trying to remember that we are all adjusting and this is new for all of us. The kids think she is wonderful and love her. I think the hardest part is she is not 2 months late for her cycle but has only had 1 faint positive test and 10 negative tests, She went to the dr last week but no results yet.
I think the most interesting part of all of this was telling our families. J's parents and uncle handled it really well. But her sister (older) Is no longer talking to J. J has also lost 2 close friends due to the relationship (partially) but is getting though it. K only had to tell his dad (my father in law) and father in law said "Why do I care?" which was nice. My mom and step grandparents had a variety of responses. My mom said "I am prying you will find the right way to live", While my step grand parents welcomed her and said "Its not our choice as long as you're happy we don't care".
Next was telling friends and posting to face book. Several of my friends were not surprised, as they knew K and I were seeking a third. Others thought K and I were divorcing, and asking questions as to what happened. The most interesting response was my sisters moms. and her telling me she had lived this life and still is and loves it. and then she tried to go into detail about the Sex (which is way more than I wanted/needed to know about my sisters mom). But we did receive mainly positive responses to our choice in lifestyle which was wonderful to us after several bad responses.
I plan to do a once a week update on Sundays, while I relax and get ready for the next week of school. If there are any questions I will try tho Answer them to the best I can.
Erin L.
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